Ellijay

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In less than a month, I will travel to my hometown of Ellijay, Georgia for a few days. Louisville has become my adopted home over the last six years, as I described a few weeks ago, and for good reason. That said, I have a lot of love for my hometown. I love the more relaxed pace. I love getting a Paradise Burger at Mr. P’s Drive-In or a fried apple pie from one of the local orchards. I love my family, of course, and I love the Appalachian Mountains that wind down from the upper reaches of Maine to meet their rolling demise near my home.

I have spent much time in those mountains. I have traveled the old county roads and seen the graves of my pioneer ancestors. I have swam an area of rapids and delta affectionately known as the Shoals. I have fished the Mountaintown, the Cartecay, and Coosawattee. I have camped at Bear Creek with friends countless times in an area near the Cohutta Wilderness where there’s no phone reception for miles. It is called Bear Creek for a reason; the woods are bustling with life. When you’re out there on a summer’s night, the woods are a symphony of frogs and crickets. A good campfire will add some pops and crackles to the orchestration, as well as a lot of jokes and perhaps a ghost story or two. Those stories take on new life in the weird shadows cast by the firelight. Step away from the fire and the sky will, if you have vision beyond the trees, become a canopy of a million lights. We can’t see these lights in the city. They are there, but our own man-made replicas send a glow into the atmosphere that blocks our vision of their heavenly splendor.

Yes, there are many things I love about Ellijay. In fact, I had to think quite a bit when explaining to my grandmother last year that I would rather not move back, at least not right now. The answer is simple, however: I simply don’t fit in.

It is an exaggeration to say that there is no one my age in Ellijay. That isn’t true. However, being a single Christian guy in his late 20s with an artistic leaning and a master’s degree in theology pulls me towards conversations I simply wouldn’t have as often there. I would literally have to change my ministry style. I work best in one-on-one conversations with people who are, for lack of better terms, bookish or artistic. There are many places like Louisville where I can thrive and disciple many believers because of these natural traits. In Louisville, it is easy for me to have close friends. Ellijay doesn’t lend itself to this. The one bookstore in town closed last year, the only higher education opportunities in the city are extension centers for nearby tech schools, and the sadly most entertaining thing to do on a typical day is to go to Walmart and people-watch. If Ellijay were a college town, there might be hope for me. There would be more personally stimulating conversations to be had. But the economy rests on apples and chickens, which doesn’t fertilize a soil for such conversations to grow.

I realize I might be called an intellectual or cultural snob. I don’t look down on Ellijay, though. I very much value the environment that bred me, and occasionally some things make me want to move back. However, there is simply little for me to grasp onto there. I have few ways to minister to the people in a manner natural to me. Our common language is now too weak, and I know I would be fighting a loneliness that would become a large obstacle. All that to say, I love my Ellijay… and I must continue to love it from far away.

(Cover image: a portion of Amicalola Falls, a natural attraction in the mountains east of Ellijay, photographed by me.)

Louisville

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Almost a year and a half ago, I was having a conversation with one of my pastors. At the time, I was set to soon be part of a church plant in Asheville, North Carolina. As I began to express a certain anxiety about my upcoming move, my pastor presented an interesting question, “Have you ever thought about staying in Louisville?” The honest answer at the time was no. Somehow the thought had never occurred to me that I could settle down here. I had always intended on moving on to some other place to do pastoral work. The questions stuck in my mind, though, and soon several events transpired that made this off-hand question a very serious consideration, including the cancellation of the church plant. After many, many months of reconsidering, suddenly I find myself contemplating what it would look like to settle down and make Louisville my home. Continue reading

Changing the World

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I have developed a certain tendency to use the phrases “changing the world” or “taking over the world” when speaking with creative friends. I usually leave this without any particular explanation, a seeming little absurdity thrown into a comment or conversation, but I actually mean what I say. I fully intend a lifelong conspiracy with these friends. You see, these friends understand and create beauty, and beauty changes the world. Continue reading

Together With More Questions Than Answers

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I just turned 29. I’ve been a practicing Christian over half my life. I’ve been on this road of “ministry” for over a decade. I finished a master’s degree at a reputable evangelical seminary. One might think I had it “all figured out” by now. One might think I had it “together.” The years behind me have taught me many lessons, but have also left me with more to learn. Quite honestly, I have more questions now than I’ve ever had about both theological matters and their outpouring into life, and I expect this to continue until the day I see glory. Continue reading

Tipping Christianly

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Today is Sunday, which means that Christians will hit sit-down restaurants in droves after Sunday morning service and, in general, the wait staff of the restaurants will wish they had been assigned another shift. Why? Not because of the business. Their tables will certainly be full. No, it is because of a particular bad reputation Christians have gotten at restaurants: we are lousy tippers. Continue reading

The Artist-Pastor Identity Crisis

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I’m beginning to think that if I don’t have an identity crisis at least once a month, I’m simply not taking in enough good art. A few weeks ago, I watched a piece of theater that has become a bit of a local staple here in Louisville: Actors Theatre’s production of Dracula. It is really one of the very few pieces of theater I have seen in recent years, but with the performance came a flood of emotions, the degree of which I wasn’t quite expecting. It threw me into a serious identity crisis that, if I were to be quite honest, I’m not entirely over. In fact, I intend not to be. Continue reading

Review: Blue Like Jazz

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A low-budget independent film by a sophomore director seeks to break every rule for so-called “Christian” films and instead make a compelling, realistic story about faith. Despite a few not-so-glaring flaws, the 2012 film Blue Like Jazz rings true, is superbly engaging, and has opened several doors for future filmmakers in the process. Continue reading

My Testimony

I grew up in the North Georgia mountains, in the rolling, rural heart of the Deep South, and thus was thoroughly aware of Christianity from a very early age.  The beliefs and mores of Christianity have long engrained themselves into that culture.  My great-aunt and uncle and would take me to a back-woods independent church occasionally, while my mother would take me to the somewhat more bourgeois First Baptist Church downtown in our small community.  It was at that church that, at the age of seven, I “walked the aisle” and repeated a prayer.  I did it because that’s what was expected everyone should do eventually and because I had heard what happened if you didn’t… but it marked no significantly momentous change in my life.  That would not happen until many years down the road. Continue reading

So Where am I?

I have been very quiet here and at Image of Truth as of late.  Honestly, the majority of the semester had me in a mental fog, and my mood matched the relative lack of lucidity that I was feeling.  Frankly, the burnout I have felt with seminary the past year has been a great stumbling block for me.  My affection for the school itself waned after the Center for Christianity and the Arts at Southern was done away with, as well as my favorite professor, who headed up that department.  Without the classes I enjoyed through that program, Southern has simply not been as exciting a place.

What has truly excited me in the past year and what has caused frustration for me at the same time has been thoughts of the future. Continue reading