As we are reading through the Psalms in my Personal Spiritual Disciplines class, perhaps it is no surprise that my first scripture meditation in this journal would come from Psalm 1. This passage has been resonating with me long before this class began and long before I came to Southern Seminary (though that fact would only then constitute two weeks, in and of itself). Psalm 1:1-2 in the English Standard Version says this:
Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
but his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
This passage incites my reflection on the fact that we are commanded here to mediate on the scripture day and night. How lowly a human I am that God’s Word is often not such a meditation for me. It is a passage for reading in morning and evening, and the same for studying at some point throughout the day, but I must question how often I actually meditate on the scripture day and night. Too often it remains only during those times when I actually contemplate the meaning of the verses and let them impact me.
I echo Paul, saying, “For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing” (Romans 7:19). Paul said it, and I know I am a much weaker disciple than Paul. Sure, I may not have murders under my belt, but I do not find myself in the least inclined to do that which is righteous. I long far too little for God’s Word. Yet he instills in me enough faith day to day to help me endure to the finish.